BIOGRAPHY.♥


Fatynn Buhari. 14♥
Single ; Unavailable.
A bipolar and clumsy one.
Dancing is the way i express not impress.


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SPEAKOUTLOUD.♥

Saturday, October 9, 2010. ?

 

It's exam period and i wish i could put aside all the sadness and pains as
i really wanted to focus on my studies but everything strikes, 
playing in my mind and it mixed with all topics.
One of my girlfriend told me that " so... all this you've been putting
fake smiles... "
Honestly, yes i do. I've been putting in alot since everything happened 
few months ago. Even it's a happy thing when it came back
and play again. But it was just different.
I can't help from stopping myself of replaying the memories.
I miss how it used to play the role and how it was played.
Quarreling, fighting, say backs, teasing all occurs now.
Am i stupid? Or i am just too much over? Or.. I still really care and love?
I guess, i am all. I get too worried easily. I get jealous, which
girl's used to.. Yes, i do get really jealous.
Nonsense, i know. But if you know my feelings, you will probably understands.
But you don't even care. 
My mind says that, leave and move on. May someday someone better
will be with you and treat you better.
My heart says that, wait till the day. by hook by crook, he will be yours. 
time will change everything. just put the faith in your hopes.

But my hopes totally vanished. My heart shattered.
My trust destroyed. My love betrayed.
How should i need to fix everything back?
I don't think I could manage to fix. Well, i might just
let it be. Life sucks anyway.
Corrections ; love and life sucks.

I just wish i could be the old NUR FATEEN ELYANIE.
Who can be happy again when foods served.
When i can use the laptop or computer whenever im mad.
No heartbreaks. Always happy and able to smile sincerely, not faking it.
I wanted to rewind back the time, pause, transit it to now, the current life.


tomorrow is the 10th.
Just sucks.
I hates every 10th.